Saturday, March 25, 2006

my autobiography

I'm just about ready to turn in my portfolio and request my final exam for an independent study class I have been taking from BYU. I have to pass this class to be formally accepted into their Bachelor of General Studies program that I can complete at home. For one assignment I had to write a short autobiography. I wrote it in interview form, which was probably one of the least creative ways, but I was feeling pretty rusty with the whole paper writing process. Anyway, here's my autobiography.

Interviewer: “What are some of your roles?”
Susan: “The first role I fill each day is that of mother. I say it is the first because my two girls are usually the ones to wake me in the morning. It is also the most important role, and I am extremely grateful that I can stay at home each day and spend most of my time fulfilling it. I have also played the part of wife to my husband for six and a half years. I am also a student – a student of BYU, a student of the scriptures, a student of good books, and very often a student of my children. Currently in church, I am using my musical talent to fulfill my role as the Primary singing time leader in our ward, and I also fill in on the organ whenever needed.”
Interviewer: “Tell of a defining moment in your life.”
Susan: “One defining event in my life occurred as my oldest brother served his mission when I was about twelve years old. He would write in his letters about the things he was learning, and I could see how much his testimony was growing. For the first time I had the desire to read the Book of Mormon myself. I read it all that summer and finished it a little after school started again. I gained a love for the scriptures that summer that has continued throughout my life and has often been a source of strength and a place of refuge.
“You only asked for one moment, but I’ll share another shaping moment in my life that occurred when I was nineteen. I was asked to go on a blind date where I met the man who would later become my husband. That night I found the greatest friend I have ever had. My life was forever changed in finding my eternal companion because I now have someone else’s interests to put before my own. I had never learned to serve or love in such a selfless way before meeting him.”
Interviewer: “If you could be anyone you wanted to be and could do anything you wanted to do for one day, who and what would that be? Why?”
Susan: “In the morning I would want to be the organist in the temple. How I would love to just sit there for hours playing hymns in the House of the Lord. I truly cannot think of anything that would bring me closer to heaven. Then that evening, I would like to be the Sugar Plum Princess in the ballet The Nutcracker. I never had dance lessons and am quite uncoordinated, so I would love to experience how it feels to excel in creating such a beautiful art form. It would also be really fun to see my girls’ faces when they saw that their mother was a princess.”
Interviewer: “Describe a difficult time in your life. How did you overcome it, and what have you learned from it?”
Susan: “The most shocking and dramatic difficulty I have had in my life was when at age sixteen my parents, my grandfather, and my grandmother were killed in two car accidents within a six-month period of time. I moved from rural North Carolina to Orem, Utah to live with some close family friends. I remember a few times when I felt so overwhelmed with loneliness that I did not have the energy to do anything but pray. I remember very vividly how my tears and sobs would just stop in the middle of my prayer, and my pleas would turn into expressions of gratitude for the love I felt. Since my father never went to the temple, one year after the accident, my brothers, sisters, and I went to the Provo temple to complete his work and be sealed to our parents. I felt so much joy as we all embraced in the sealing room after the ordinances were completed that I didn’t think my body could contain a single ounce more of happiness. Since then, I cannot remember ever feeling that overwhelming loneliness that had plagued me before. I have learned that families are truly eternal, the priesthood authority is the Lord’s power, and I am never really alone. Alma’s discourse on how faith grows into knowledge makes much more sense to me now. I always had a testimony of those things, but I now know through experience that they are true.”

3 comments:

Kristen said...

thanks for sharing! i actually thought your idea for an interview was smart. my brother has been applying for scholarships to byu and this topic was one of the essays he had to write. as i was trying to help him, i realized how difficult it is to sum up your life in 300 words. (that was his limit.) the interview method allows you to highlight some important parts of your life without feeling like you have to include everything or feel guilty for leaving parts out. well done!

you entry reminded me of why i love my blog so much. besides being a fun way to keep in touch with family and friends, i use it as my journal & copy my entries into word & then burn them onto a cd. i used to be so great at keeping a journal & loved it. but it seems like now i get so busy its hard to keep it up regularly. and its sad because so many wonderful things happen with the kids and stuff that i want to remember & record. but the blog lets me do this.

Susan said...

thanks for the encouragement about my writing format! I'm a little nervous about having it graded, but oh well, life will go on. And good luck to your brother with his scholarship applications. That may be more nerve-racking than me trying to make a comeback into the school scene.

That's a really good idea to burn your entries onto a CD. I've been thinking lately about how to save them, so maybe I'll do the same.

Kristen said...

i think you have a really nice writing style. you're really good at coming across as fresh & open & honest, without being over the top or too flowery. i think you maximize you're words--you get everything you need into the fewest number of words. which i think is really hard to do! good luck on the grades.

i want to go back, too, i just don't know when i will. i think right now it would be hard on the family to have that time taken away. with three little ones (and one of them a newborn) and all the other responsibilities that come with church work & being a grownup...i'm afraid i wouldn't be very good at it. =) but you inspire me that its still within reach...one day!